Sometimes you simply do not feel inspired. I’m feeling that a lot lately. As a writer, that can be debilitating when you want to write but not ‘feeling’ it. What does inspiration mean? It is the process of being mentally stimulated to do or feel something, especially to do something creative. I’ve tried watching movies, listening to music and even taking a nap.

This could be called writers block in some circles. In my world, it means I am not feeling it right now. That is exactly why I am writing about it. I have had a lot going on in my world of business and perhaps came to that place of taking a break from it all. Last weekend, I watched movies, one after the other. I enjoyed myself unquestionably. But, again, no inspiration.

Perhaps today is a breakthrough as I had an interview about my book, Courage Confidence Connections Journal. In talking about my book and my writing, it sparked again and that is likely what I needed to stir my senses of letting it flow and not attempting to force it.

I’ve written quite a bit over the years. Every day in my personal journal as a matter of fact. So having been asked many about my book and my writing, I started to ponder what has been the hold up or hold back for me lately? I have not prioritized my own work. The interviewer asked some tough questions which brought up memories of what inspired me in those writings.

I believe the hold up has been putting pressure on myself to perform or impress others versus writing for me. I have started my memoirs but that too has stalled. It is not an easy thing to get going on again since losing 3 family members in two years. I’ll get back to that soon enough and there are no pending deadlines. I don’t work well with pressure and deadlines in the area of creativity. I never have. I need space and inspiration.

Writing for me has to flow and come naturally. If not, then it is like pushing against the wind on a sandy beach. It’s futile and will sound like it. How does one move forward or keep going on a difficult project? Desire is paramount. I desire to write on one hand, but not motivated on the other hand. I believe I am finding my stride again in sitting down and writing about inspiration.

If you want to do something, take action in starting. Perhaps a little push from someone else as I had today. Someone who believes in me and enjoys reading what I write. I have a voice and yet for a while, I couldn’t find it. Perhaps in sadness for the loss of loved ones and feeling alone. So here I am, writing for me once again.

Short, sweet, to the point and as they say, “I’ll be back”!